I can do this.
I’ve been successful in the past.
I can do this.
I know I can do it, I know I’m good at it; I know I feel better when I do it.
I’m going to bite the bullet and just do it damn it.
I weighed myself yesterday; I’m ashamed to admit that I’m up to 222.2 pounds. This is the HEAVIEST I’ve EVER been in my whole life. Ideally, according to the charts, I should be around 146lbs. I’d be happy any where in the range of 146-160lbs. I used to be 160lbs about four years ago. I was a size 12 and was super cute. I know I’ll never be “small”; I’m just not built that way. I’m all hips, curves, and ass. I know that I can not keep up with my husband’s metabolism and I know that ice cream and eating out late at night don’t help. This isn't some wacked out New Years Resolution shite, this is me being straight up honest with my fat ass.
I’m going to start writing down everything that I eat. I know how to track my Weight Watchers points and how to follow the program. I’ve been incredibly successful in the past; I just need to have faith in myself. The last time I did it, when I started this blog, I lost 23lbs in less than two months. By cutting out soda, eating healthy, walking with the sistah, and skipping fast food I dropped it super quick.
I’m an emotional eater and I know the stress from my mom and starting school have really taken a toll on me. The last few months, I’ve been a bum and in a funk—even thou I hide it well; I still pork out all the time. I’m back in that state of mind where I’m afraid to have sex in the day light because I don’t want the husband to see me. I stay bundled up at home, lots of layers, and do the same in public.
I can do this. I’m going to do this.
I’m stronger than the red velvet cake, the white chocolate mochas, the double cheeseburgers.
I can do this.
Pix from today:
xo,
Jess
1.06.2009
I can do THIS.
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If I can do it, you can do it!! I feel nasty nasty...ugh!! I always feel better after going to the gym too, it's just the thought of going that is such a drag!!! C'mon nice weather so I can get out an walk with the pooches!!
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You can do it. Just think: NOTHING TASTES BETTER THAN FEEEEEELING THIN!
Stumbled onto your blog after reading Trish's. Anyhow, I did WW for 9 months and lost 70lbs after the birth of my son. You can definitely do it! Now that the holidays happened and I've gained back :)
I love reading about others weight losses, but didn't just want to stalk you so I thought I'd leave a comment!
you can do it sister...just say no to the coldstone.
i can do it too sister!!!!
and i can that lovaboy of mine eating right too :)
oh.
and i love how you did the typical "unhappy before face"
LOL
I know how you feel. I was thin my whole life until my first pregnancy. When I gained sixty four pounds. SIXTY FOUR.
Then, two years passed, and now I'm pregnant again. Except I only lost about half the weight from the first one. I'm doing a lot better with weight gain this time, but I'm still afraid the hospital is going to have to get one of those special wheel chairs for extra wide asses just for me.
Plus I noticed the other day that I kind of have a shelf ass. Yikes.
Good luck with the weight loss! Here's hoping I won't be too far behind...
girl I know you can do it!! I'm backing you all the way! many props to you, friend!
Good luck! I should write down what I eat too, bet it would help me a bunch. I NEVER weigh myself. NEVER. I don't even look at the scale at the dr's office. I hate knowing my weight. Something about a number really gets to me.
Let's try this again. I am right there with you. You and I could be twins according to your current pics. I SWEAR! I have cut back on my coke intake as it had gotten out of control over the holidays and before. I will help you if you help me. I love Alloushious's comment about thinking nothing tastes better than feeling thin. I want to feel that way again! No more ordering a plate for myself when out. I'll choose sensibly and then ask that they put half of it in a to go box right away. No more of those lick the plate because it's soooo good items. Gotta see the bigger and better picture! I'll need your help!
seems like we all feel the need to loose... I really think you can do this girl!! I am so proud of you!!! YOU CAN DO ITTTT!! ;) LA
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